How I Manipulate Myself

Posted by on Sep 27, 2016 in Blog Posts

My arms are killing me, so, I haven’t written new fiction in two weeks.  A little bit ago, I talked about how I wrote three short stories in a week.  I’ve been editing and revising my work since I can’t write for extended periods of time.  However, I found it fascinating how I manipulate myself in order to write certain feelings.  I had to do this heavily for one of the pieces I wrote and there are two things I will do in order to achieve the feelings necessary to write a character.

The first one is simple, I think about the situation that I’ve put a character in and then I become that character.  I flood myself with the emotions.  So, if a character loses a loved one, I think of someone I love, close my eyes, and imagine they are dead.  I run through the interactions I would make with others and how I would behave.  I drive myself to actually crying, and then, I write.  My mind is back to what it was before the exercise, that way I can write, but I have created a pool of emotions to drag into my piece.

The second way is more of a high level overview.  If I am going to write a sad piece, I don’t need the emotions to be there, but I need the text to be representative of sadness.  This is done through vocabulary choices and other techniques, but I begin the process before I even start writing.  During the initial phases, I pull an acoustic album and play it.  I will find albums that have the “vibe” needed to imbue me with the necessary tone.  Then, I will start writing.  After about twenty minutes, the needle will retract and I will be left in silence.  I won’t notice the lack of music, but I will carry those tracks through me as I keep writing.  Then, after I take a break, I turn it back on so I can get back into the right mindset.  It allows me to take breaks but never lose the tone of my pieces.

I’m sure I manipulate myself in other ways, but those are two ways I consciously modify my mind’s state.