My Journey to Writing

The Beginning

My Mom and Dad are the reason I have an overactive imagination.  I grew up reading magazines with my father: National Geographic on lazy Saturdays or Sundays.  At night, my mom would lie next to me in my bed and read prayers while I read books (I miss that bed, it had the best lighting for reading).  Before continuing I want to clarify, my family was by no means discussing high level calculus or literature at the dinner table.  More often than not, our conversations were focused on food, family, and the world around us.  It was usually a competition for food - even though we had an abundant amount - so if you see me eat in public watch your fingers or turn away (it slightly resembles Jurassic Park when they feed the Velociraptor).  Nonetheless, after our meal we would usually clean, relax, digest, and just talk.  I cannot tell you what we discussed because it wasn’t important.  It was the communal experience that I grew up with that sticks in my memory.  My family has been wonderful at teaching my how people interact.  And without my Dad and Mom, I never would have achieved gained the best weapon in my arsenal for writing: my imagination.

Me standing in Hobo Cave on a climbing trip during 2013.  I love the outdoors and rock climbing. 

Back to the imagination, with national geographic facts and adventures from classical novels my mind became hyperactive in terms of creating worlds.  This large amount of reading fueled this creator type mentality, but I never wrote.  During this time, I wasn’t concerned with downloading the stories from my head onto paper.  I wish I had been, because I would have some epic adventures to share with myself.  Either way, my mind became an amazing place with all sorts of stories.  I usually played a role, a good guy or bad, it didn’t matter.  It was fun to create a world where things happened; life in the suburbs of Chicago can grow boring.  I will give you a hint; I still make these worlds in my head.  The only difference is I remove myself, create new characters, build plots, and invite you to join me. 

University

Engineering

While I was still reading and going on adventures in my own head, I eventually went to a University.  It wasn't something I was terribly interested in and chose to go down the path of Mechanical Engineer.  That was a mistake, because I never truly got into engineering.  Counselors believed that my interest in cars and racing would make me a good fit as an engineer.   Now it was true, I did enjoy working on cars and my first race was at the young age of 16 (in my old 1991 Crimson Mr2).  But, no matter how much you enjoy racing and wrenching on a car, there is no correlation between that and engineering.  With zero motivation, I ended up at home for my third semester.  I chose to finish my Gen Ed requirements at a community college and work full-time in the restaurant industry.  At this point, I was reading still but not as much as I (the current Theodore) would like me to have been. 

I love tea, so much, that I drink it loose leaf and floating in my cup.  An old habit from this time in my life.

Enter Philosophy

Well, after my first semester I was involved in an accident on a highway that totaled my Mr2.  Not a surprise the car was worth less than two thousand dollars.  But, without a car I was stuck in my home town for another semester.  This was a blessing in disguise because I ran into my future mistress, Philosophy.  I loved the ancients and Aristotle became my favorite.  That semester ended, and I found myself back in Peoria at Bradley University.  I loved the University and my friends so I returned.  Except I was no longer an ME but a student in Philosophy.  My first two classes were the Pro Seminar and Ethics. 

Daily Writing

This was when I met the most influential person in my writing career.  Now, this person was Dr. Greene and he never taught me to write fiction.  In fact, when I turned in my final paper he had a few choice words to say to me.  At this point, I was fully engrained in getting my degree in Philosophy, and he told me to leave the program because my writing was not sufficient.  Instead of being mad at him, I asked my teacher what I could do to improve my writing.  He told me to write everyday and read, if I did that, by the time I had him for my next class, I should be at the appropriate writing level.  I took that too heart, and began keeping journals.  A year later, Dr. Greene commended me on the improvements in my writing.  This showed me that anyone can improve, but it took time.  Here is when I learned patience in my life.  Those journals eventually converted me to writing fiction, but that will be discussed later. 

While I give Dr. Greene a lot of credit for making me a writer, he wasn't the only professor that made me successful.  Dr. Kelley worked with me and help me learn logic.  Logic is fundamental in the layout of a philosophy paper (or any paper), a structure I still use in my fiction writing.  Even though I am no longer his student, Dr. Kelley is always willing to meet and discuss everything and anything!

Then there is Dr. Niculescu, Dr. Niculescu has broadened my horizons by introducing me to wonderful writers and helping me build fundamental reading lists.  These reading lists take me through multiple countries and their traditions in literature.  From Balzac to Faulkner, his constant guidance is wonderful.  Our infrequent lunch meetings are a great time to get new books for me to read.  Recently, Dr. Niculescu read one of my pieces Another Day and commended me on the strives I have made.  At the time, he stated that he thought my goal of being a writer was near impossible, he recounted that belief. 

All three of these professors are still in my life.  Dr. Greene doesn't remember tell me to leave the program, but remembers how I improved my writing in a short period of time.  Without these three, I would not have my own website, short stories, and two books (one is still being worked on, Journey to God)

 

Creek in Shawnee National Forest after the water has stopped running.  Fish, frogs, tadpoles all surviving in what amounts to a very large puddle. 
Cooking rice in an old can.  This was on a trip to Foster Falls in Tennessee. 
I was a cute and sweet kid, no idea where it all went so wrong.

The Journal

As previously stated, Dr. Greene was paramount in my transformation into a writer.  It was through his exercise of keeping a journal that I would begin writing fiction.  When he told me to write everyday, it was observations or musings.  So, I did just that and wrote about what I saw: a bug that landed on a leaf, the veins in the leaf, how they were stressed.  This was all my first journal had, and after about a year, it was full and I was tired of writing about the physical world.  The physical world is a wonderful place where amazing things happen if you look for them.  But, the everydayness that surrounded me didn't change drastically.  The same bricks, bugs, birds, bats, cats, people, cars were all the same.  So, when I got my second journal, I began writing stories that had no basis in reality but were rooted in my imagination.  Those first exercises were my first pieces of fiction, but they weren't fiction for fictions sake.  They were to help my philosophy writing.

I Do Declare!

One day fate struck, I was sitting with my friends watching That 70's Show and listening to them muse about something I found unimportant.  The show wasn't entertaining to me, and I had my laptop on, well, my lap.  Even though the internet is a wealth of information, it was boring me.  So I did something I never thought I would do, I opened Microsoft Word without an assignment.  Someone asked me what I was doing, and in reality I was staring at the cursor blink in and out of existence, but I declared, "I am going to write a book".  That is it, five years ago I made that statement and began writing my first book.  There were a ton of worlds to choose from, but I decided a fantasy novel would fit me best (I loved and still love Terry Goodkind, to the point that I read his books instead of Harry Potter).  Over two years, I would play with my pet project and continue to write in my journals.  At this point, I wasn't serious about being a writer and eventually scrapped that book after 25,000 words.  It sits on a hard drive on my desk.  But I scrapped it because I wanted to try my hand at a new book.  That was when I wrote the first chapter of Sinew Ablaze: Clouds of Fire.

Work, Work, and then Primo

Sinew Ablaze was originally going to be released only on my Facebook page as a chapter a week.  This weekly schedule was a way to force myself to write weekly.  A benefit was my friends could then edit the piece to help me improve my writing.  Well, the friends editing my work eventually died and it became more about managing people than writing.  I took the rest of the chapters offline.  During this time,  I began working at a new corporation and shared the first chapter with my co-workers.  They enjoyed it, but like most things in life, were not being 100% honest.  Perhaps they did enjoy it, but when I reread my old work I am frightened by how illegible it is; whether it is grammar or sentence structure.  Eventually, I left that corporation and was accepted into the MBA program (I was planning this) but decided to take a four month break where I only focused on writing.  In those four months, with nothing to do, I wrote eight or more hours a day.  In two months, I had finished my first book: Primo Capite and The Others and it rang in at a whopping 135,000 words.  Just like my first book, Sinew Ablaze was scrapped.  The only remnant available to the public is the short story: Clouds of Fire (the first chapter of the book). 

Me lead climbing in Shawnee National Forest with insanely long hair three years ago.  Those green pants are no longer with me, they survived three climbing seasons.  Now, I have upgraded to spandex.
Working on Journey to God with my home made mug.  That is the rejection letter in the background.

The Current State

I am back at school studying for my MBA with a concentration in marketing.  My school is covered through my GA role and that includes some money for living expenses.  Since I have an obligation, I have to prioritize my writing below my school work.  One day, I hope that writing replaces my responsibilities to a company.  With school requiring less time than a full time job, I write anywhere between 20-50 hours a week (50 hour weeks upset my friends because I disappear from gatherings) and get spring break, summer break, and winter break to write unobstructed.  At the time, I am not querying agents because I want to have two books to show them, because Primo Capite and the Others is gruesome and gritty, while Journey to God is whimsical and surreal.  Journey to God the first draft is almost done, and editing has been an ongoing process during the writing of the manuscript.  Once finished, I will edit and then send the edited piece to my editor.  After that, I will query a specific agent who sent a personalized response to me about Primo Capite and the Others, before I look into other agencies.  Her rejection letter is currently framed next to one of my desk, and has become a driving force in me writing my second book.  Once editing is done on Journey to God, I will begin work on Tesla's Travels the first book in a two part series focused on the world in The Bohr's Protocol.